Dear Little (soon to be Middle)-
Mommy and daddy made a big final decision this week. We’ve hemmed and hawed over it for months now.
And, it wasn’t an easy decision at all. We want you to know that we want the best for you, and we also want the best for our family. And, it’s hard. It’s hard to make decisions about you and school.
You’ve been doing so well in your senior preschool class this year. You went in the week you turned 3 and haven’t looked back. And, there are kids in your class that turned 4 after November 1st.
Guess what? Your teachers sing your praises every day. They tell us how awesome you are doing and how quick you pick things up. You know all of your letters, upper and lower case; both how to write them and recognize them. You know the sounds they make. You know what letter a word starts with just by listening to it. You can spell and write your name. You know how to count so well (and you are very systematic about it). You can read your numbers 1-10. You carry on conversations and interact with adults and other children. If I may say so, you are a rockstar. Just like your big sister.
Yes, I’m bragging!
After this class, your “sissy” as you call her, went on to Pre-K and this year Kindergarten (both at the private school because our cut off here is September 1st, and her October 14th birthday cut off doesn’t make it). Next year, she’s going to public Kindergarten and will be all caught up.
You were going to do the same. Private pre-K where we know you would excel.
But, there are some issues with that.
Your big sister will have to catch the bus at 7:20 and you would have to be at school at 7:40. Both of which can’t happen simultaneously. And, the price. It’s expensive to send you to private school. With mommy staying home with your little sister, it’s just not possible.
So, we made a decision. I promise, it was one of the hardest decisions to make for you. Next year, you will go to the preschool at our church. Registration fee has been paid and everything.
But, they won’t allow us to put you with all of the other 4 year olds. They are very strict about the September 1st birthday cut off (which mommy finds funny considering it’s less stringent than your current school, but no rule bending). You’ll be in the “younger 4s” class. No more Spanish lessons. No more daily Mandarin lessons. No more uniforms. No more lunch provided. You’ll only be there four days a week from 9-1.
Mommy has cried many times about this. Not because I want to push, push, push you ahead. But because you love school and learning so much. I want to keep your spongy brain absorbing everything you want. And, I’m worried you are going to be in a class with kids that won’t know what you know and you are going to be bored. And, get into trouble (guess what? Mommy got in trouble in school all the time because I was bored). Yes, mommy is worried. Of course, everybody keeps telling me it will be fine and you will adjust. But, I want equal opportunity. I want you to have the same opportunities and experiences that your sister had. Why? I don’t know. You’ll have different opportunities. And, they will be good.
You’ll get to spend time at home with mommy and your baby sister. We’ll help get your “sissy” on the bus in the morning, spend some time together, and then get you off to school for a bit. I know you’ll have fun.
And, yet, I still worry. I’m pretty sure that no amount of reassurance from anybody will make me worry less.
Because I want what I think is best for you. While this will be good. It’s different. It’s not what you are used it. It’s not what I am used to. And, that is why I worry.
We love you, big girl.
Mommy and Daddy