One of my goals this year was to “put on my big girl panties” and put myself out there more, whether on stage, presenting or just posting more real and raw content. So when I saw that Listen to Your Mother was looking for people to audition, I jumped right in.
Except, no, I didn’t. I hemmed and hawed and went back and forth and picked an audition spot on the last day possible.
Then I had NO idea what I wanted to read. What story would I tell. Initially, I thought I would share my accidental (aka unplanned unassisted) home birth story. But after asking around, it wasn’t quite what LTYM was all about (but, really, how can I not tell a story where a firefighter walks into our house, sees the pictures on the walls and says “hey, haven’t we been here before?”
I thought about it some more. Maybe I could write a series of funny things the kids said. Then I realized I didn’t write them down and would have to make them up?
I asked some family members if they had read anything memorable of mine. In the back of my head, I think I knew what it was, but I asked. Every.Single.One.Of.Them got back to me and said I needed to tell the story of our loss.
I couldn’t do it. How could I read that story out loud? In front of strangers? Multiple times (auditions, and rehearsals). I’m not strong enough for that, I thought.
But, I made a goal. And, it needed to be shared. (Why, why, WHY is it so taboo to talk about? We need all the love and support we can get. So much grief and so little understanding!
So, I did it. I shared it. Because it’s not only my story, but the story of so many other women and families every single day.
You can check out the video here!
I’m so grateful for the opportunity and more importantly, the friends that I’ve made, all of my sisters in motherhood!
Make sure you check out the entire Listen To Your Mother Atlanta show. Raivon Lee’s story on post-partum depression is real and raw and Kayla Aimee’s story will have you nodding your head in agreement the entire time!